November 13, 2008
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and like most things i have encountered in my life, i have reached a complete end.
about ten minutes ago, i read through the Normal ending for Heavens Feel, marking the final ending to the game and finalizing my 100% completion of Fate/Stay Night. it’s been a crazy ride with this game. it was something i longed for, and yet something i never dreamed i would ever complete. after spending those long four weeks with tsukihime, my yearning only got stronger. and here i stand, at the tip of the mountain, having completely conquered it.
i don’t really know what i feel right now. Heavens Feel was a rollercoaster, a much more shocking one than i imagined. at the same time i am happy for the outcome of the True ending, i am saddened by the Normal ending, and i feel a wave of regret at plowing through the game in ten days. it’s like losing a treasured possession, or finding a toy you played with when you were a child. you strain to remember what it was like when you first got it, that joy and happiness. you strive to reclaim that feeling and might enjoy yourself, but in the back of your mind you know you won’t ever be able to reclaim that inital feeling ever again. i could read through fate dozens of times, and each time i might see something i missed last time, or something i forgot. but i know that no read through will be as powerful or as immersive as that first time.
i look back on the ED list, and i remember what it was like when i reached each of those ends. fond memories all.
well, i have once again stayed up far too late. it’s time for me to take this swirl of emotions and go to bed.
So the winter went by, and spring came along.
Nature is in its full bloom, and there is nothing left that reminds you of the cold hard days.
Stash away both what you lost and gained, for life continues on.Now then…
The story that unraveled in this town has reached its conclusion.
New stages and people are waiting for us…
